My Glorious Monster

I wrote this myself, on October 26, 2012 and I decided to share it with you. Enjoy!

Monster, Monster
Who am I to say no?
Dying yet unbreakable
This pain I'll never show
The beast is hidden, for now
I'm lost under the turmoil that it's effects have left
Hallelujah, I'm saved for the night
But maybe not...
It creeps upon me, winding its tempting fingers around my neck
Can I resist?
It's arousing, alluring, perfection.
Insanity
I'm corrupted
A graceful creature that has been bent and broken beyond repair
I love it...
I hate it...
But which do I feel more? The love of it... or the hate?
No matter, it takes a hold of me either way.
I'm lost,
In its touch, in its grasp
In its chains, in an eternal cell
Can I ever escape?
Not one ounce wasted, I let the monster take over
The monster changed me,
A creature of the night, trapped in the day
How should I feel?
Broken? Confused? Alone?
I never felt alone with the monster...
I felt better with the monster,
Faster, stronger, more alive
I wasn't the cold, lifeless creature anymore
I was reconstructed, I had life breathed into me once again
The monster reclaimed what was sullen and lost
I took all my pain out on the monster, and it was always there for me
Ounce by ounce it ate away my anguish.
Once fatigued, the monster had had its fill of a lifetime
That was the first time the monster gripped me so tightly.
I never knew it loved me so... until it wouldn't let go.
I questioned,
How can I breathe with this tight hold on me?
But never got an answer, so I held onto the beast that captivated me.
Never once did I wonder,
How can I continue to function?
I prolonged its effects, wanting more of the creature
And it eagerly gave me what I wanted.
I was drawn to it, it seduced me,
And I was hypnotized to come back
For more and more and more...
It roused me early, shook my cradle, let me out of my cage
It hated me by the afternoon, I fought it, and was shut into the darkness once again
I was redeemed by the night, absorbed in the beast, distracted from remembering life without the monster.
The monster made life seem abstract and unimportant
Making me stray from everything I once knew
Torturing me until I only needed the monster.
Soon I was drowning in the monster, sinking low...
Far too low to ever get out of.
I was hooked.
It devoured my fears, then set them on me when I was least expectant
It consumed my troubles, then added onto my plate until I toppled over
I felt as if soon I would be swallowed up myself.
But I was too bewitched to let it go...
I clung to the monster the best I could
Until it threw me off the ledge
In fact, maybe I jumped
I had finally fallen from grace
But it was over
My wager with the monster was done.
Once again, I was a graceful creature that was bent and broken beyond repair...

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-Thorn ♥